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MAAAAAAN, Physics exam in.... about 12 hours. AND I'M NOT DONE! YAY, rejoice for I am sooooo dead.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! For MYE. Sadly, we don't have extended holidays. :(

Today was supposed to be a good day. The beginning of the day was fine, everything was nice and dandy, except the fact that I was late, and so was Peiyi. But oh well, we still ice skated and we still hung out as a group. When I was playing pool, I got a message from my bro saying he might not come home tonight. Great, so I got distracted and started playing horribly. I so do not enjoy the thought of being completely alone at home.

So I got home and realised I couldn't get into mousehunt properly on my com. Had to renew a library book, and I couldn't log in. Great. Emailed an inquiry and went to shower. Was quite irritated already. Had to hang clothes after that. The dumb bamboos wouldn't cooperate with me and I got even more frustrated, completely ruining my mood. Felt like chucking the pegs out the damned window and smashing the bamboos and leaving the clothes soggy. Yes very nice. While hanging the dumb clothes, my phone died while I was on it. Great. Charged it and continued hanging the stupid clothes. Horrid mood by then. Then I had to settle the stupid CIP crap with someone pushing me to do stuff, without giving me much time to reply, irritating me even more. Nice. As if I wasn't in a bad enough mood.

I do not need added stress thank you very much. Don't push me people. I have to handle household chores with no bloody help from my ________ brother, have to worry about my meals, study, and maintain order. No, I don't need added stress.

Had quite a .. busy week? And I can't remember what happened. LOL. I only remember staying at home all day on Tues and then going to the class BBQ. Wed had Kushinbo for dinner. YUM. Today....... woke up late. Met up with Ben for lunch. Yup, then more slacking at home. Nothing much, yup.

Studying starts next week.

Great, one thing goes my way, and then another thing bad has to happen. -_- To negate the good thing is it? So my life supposed to remain relatively bad? How nice.

So tomorrow need to go make my EZ link card. Damnit, and need to go make my IC another day. This sucks. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Too many bad choices in one day. Should have just gotten off the bus instead. Freak.

Today is a damn crappy day. First of all, whatever was planned on this day since last week didn't happen. ALL BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB THING THAT HAPPENED ON MONDAY. Because of that stupid thing, this whole week's plans got ruined. And the whole damned family got thrown into chaos, putting unnecessary stress that is totally not needed. On me, on my mum.

And all this happened because of one person. Most of this family's problems are because of him. How nice, and most people would actually realise it and try to get out of the way. But oh, no, I think he relishes being the centre of attention. Getting people to fuss over him, loving that feeling of being king. And I get the feeling that because he favours one over the other, he's trying to break their relationship. Main point? He's a selfish stubborn piece of shit, and I despise the fact that I'm related to him.

Now, because of him, I get another shitload pile of stress unloaded onto me. As if having to deal with studies isn't enough. It's the damned make or break year. Getting all these piled onto me now isn't exactly at the best of time. As if being a listening ear hard enough, as if undergoing all this (although albeit indirectly) isn't sressful enough, now you have to pile all this on me, scolding me as if I'm not stressed out enough as it is, scolding me for every itty bitty detail. And how come I get all this shit while he gets nothing huh? I know who's the favourite, and it isn't me. But you don't have to be so obvious, do you? I save up for my own stuff, while he asks and you sponsor him. $100+ for earphones that he hardly even uses. I ask for some $17 one and you ask if I really need it. He asks for things and he gets it within a blink of an eye. Me? I need to persuade and practically beg for it. How fair is that huh? And why is it that when he makes the stupid comments, you scold me as well as him? I'm not the idiot who doesn't know how to hold my tongue. It's not my fault his brain is full of air. Why the hell am I dragged into the conversation huh?

I'm really damn tempted to force myself to the edge and maybe just teeter off. See how they cope without me. Say I'm so much more reliable and responsible than him. Say I'm much more sensible and that there's no need to worry about me. So what? Doesn't mean that I don't need to have fun. I'm still a kid, still far from being a full adult. Doesn't mean you just fuss over him and I get ignored. I'm a human being too, I need care too. Maybe if I fall over one day, they might actually just realise my importance and regret so much that they didn't cherish me. But it's a one way path and I'll never know the result, do I?

Whatever, it is still a tempting thought.

I'm bored.

MAAAAAAN, Physics exam in.... about 12 hours. AND I'M NOT DONE! YAY, rejoice for I am sooooo dead.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! For MYE. Sadly, we don't have extended holidays. :(


Today was supposed to be a good day. The beginning of the day was fine, everything was nice and dandy, except the fact that I was late, and so was Peiyi. But oh well, we still ice skated and we still hung out as a group. When I was playing pool, I got a message from my bro saying he might not come home tonight. Great, so I got distracted and started playing horribly. I so do not enjoy the thought of being completely alone at home.

So I got home and realised I couldn't get into mousehunt properly on my com. Had to renew a library book, and I couldn't log in. Great. Emailed an inquiry and went to shower. Was quite irritated already. Had to hang clothes after that. The dumb bamboos wouldn't cooperate with me and I got even more frustrated, completely ruining my mood. Felt like chucking the pegs out the damned window and smashing the bamboos and leaving the clothes soggy. Yes very nice. While hanging the dumb clothes, my phone died while I was on it. Great. Charged it and continued hanging the stupid clothes. Horrid mood by then. Then I had to settle the stupid CIP crap with someone pushing me to do stuff, without giving me much time to reply, irritating me even more. Nice. As if I wasn't in a bad enough mood.

I do not need added stress thank you very much. Don't push me people. I have to handle household chores with no bloody help from my ________ brother, have to worry about my meals, study, and maintain order. No, I don't need added stress.


Had quite a .. busy week? And I can't remember what happened. LOL. I only remember staying at home all day on Tues and then going to the class BBQ. Wed had Kushinbo for dinner. YUM. Today....... woke up late. Met up with Ben for lunch. Yup, then more slacking at home. Nothing much, yup.

Studying starts next week.


Great, one thing goes my way, and then another thing bad has to happen. -_- To negate the good thing is it? So my life supposed to remain relatively bad? How nice.

So tomorrow need to go make my EZ link card. Damnit, and need to go make my IC another day. This sucks. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Too many bad choices in one day. Should have just gotten off the bus instead. Freak.


Today is a damn crappy day. First of all, whatever was planned on this day since last week didn't happen. ALL BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB THING THAT HAPPENED ON MONDAY. Because of that stupid thing, this whole week's plans got ruined. And the whole damned family got thrown into chaos, putting unnecessary stress that is totally not needed. On me, on my mum.

And all this happened because of one person. Most of this family's problems are because of him. How nice, and most people would actually realise it and try to get out of the way. But oh, no, I think he relishes being the centre of attention. Getting people to fuss over him, loving that feeling of being king. And I get the feeling that because he favours one over the other, he's trying to break their relationship. Main point? He's a selfish stubborn piece of shit, and I despise the fact that I'm related to him.

Now, because of him, I get another shitload pile of stress unloaded onto me. As if having to deal with studies isn't enough. It's the damned make or break year. Getting all these piled onto me now isn't exactly at the best of time. As if being a listening ear hard enough, as if undergoing all this (although albeit indirectly) isn't sressful enough, now you have to pile all this on me, scolding me as if I'm not stressed out enough as it is, scolding me for every itty bitty detail. And how come I get all this shit while he gets nothing huh? I know who's the favourite, and it isn't me. But you don't have to be so obvious, do you? I save up for my own stuff, while he asks and you sponsor him. $100+ for earphones that he hardly even uses. I ask for some $17 one and you ask if I really need it. He asks for things and he gets it within a blink of an eye. Me? I need to persuade and practically beg for it. How fair is that huh? And why is it that when he makes the stupid comments, you scold me as well as him? I'm not the idiot who doesn't know how to hold my tongue. It's not my fault his brain is full of air. Why the hell am I dragged into the conversation huh?

I'm really damn tempted to force myself to the edge and maybe just teeter off. See how they cope without me. Say I'm so much more reliable and responsible than him. Say I'm much more sensible and that there's no need to worry about me. So what? Doesn't mean that I don't need to have fun. I'm still a kid, still far from being a full adult. Doesn't mean you just fuss over him and I get ignored. I'm a human being too, I need care too. Maybe if I fall over one day, they might actually just realise my importance and regret so much that they didn't cherish me. But it's a one way path and I'll never know the result, do I?

Whatever, it is still a tempting thought.


I'm bored.